so i didn't go to the hanbury event in London.
i'm really disappointed in myself. but i can't help it too much because my brain stopped me from going. i'm currently suffering with pretty bad depression and terrible social anxiety and that stops me from doing a lot of things like this that i probably would have really benefited from. something about meeting new professional people in an unfamiliar environment just terrified me and i couldn't bring myself to go through it.
i am also really scared of london. i know this sounds silly but every time i seem to go there, i get really anxious and scared and don't like the people and the harsh streets.
i know that using my anxiety as an excuse for everything won't work as i continue to grow as a practitioner and that is something i'm going to have to try and overcome. will talk to my doctor about getting some outside help, maybe some therapy, where i could discover new ways to deal with these anxieties that i have so that i can prepare myself for the real world.
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